Mixtape: Pleasing vs Trusting
The first time I found myself facing this dilemma was when I was just 21 years old. I was engaged to this cute boy who told me God was calling him to plant a church in rural Kentucky. As I processed what that looked like in my life, I became very aware that in order for me to flourish I had to make sure I was trusting God. I spent a number of years “doing” what I thought I needed to do in order to be a good Christian girl. But then I found myself at a crisis of belief and realized I wasn’t called to please God. I was supposed to trust Him. God’s invitation for me to work with Him led me to act out of faith – to fully trust.
Pleasing God was about working on my sin so I could have an intimate relationship with God. Sounds super spiritual, huh? Sell out, shape up, work on… but it led to self-sufficiency, guilt, hypocrisy and exhaustion. It left me confused and directionless.
I couldn’t go into that church plant because I trusted my future husband. I couldn’t plant a church because I trusted our launch team. I could only move forward by trusting God. What a lesson that was to learn!
Over the years I’ve come to realize that pleasing God is actually a by-product of trusting God.
You must make sure you’re trusting God with your sin. Trusting Him with your doubt. Trusting Him with your finances. Trusting Him with your marriage. Fully living out who God says you are. This path seems far less heroic.
Sometimes it means just stopping and saying , “God I don’t know where You’re going, but I will trust You. I don’t know where You are going to move us, but I will trust You. I don’t know if I’m talented enough, but I will trust You.”
Jesus is your rock and fortress. Lean into this truth as you step out on faith and TRUST Him.
Anyone else face the battle of pleasing God vs. trusting God?
(originally posted October 2, 2012)